thoughts in the testing times ..!!

I don't know what it exactly was , I don't know what the feeling was like , all I know is yes I am scared , yes I was low and for reasons that even I did not know. When I washed face and looked up in the mirror yes I saw a tear my eyes were red and I saw no hopes only despair. Actually nothing happened but yet i felt your void. For the first time ever I got a thought that today if I had my someone, my special someone, that special one how would things be like. When the world would b asleep he will have all the time on this earth to talk to me, make me feel better, rather help me be myself. Help me pick up all the broken pieces and bring them back to shape. How he would know I am not okay even when i said was fine. Strange I am expecting so much from someone whom I dont even know.

From outside i may apper to be happy go lucky and a fun loving girl but ,Don't know there are times when I am broken ,I am weak from d soul though i never let anyone know. Sometimes i feel my thoughts are not worth the drama it takes in dealing with them , sometimes i wonder what differnce will my thoughts make to them as they might b busy, they all have problems of their own. 

And sometimes I feel I am a fool, because i fool myself make my poor brain believe what my heart screams but then that's okay..!! That's how its supposed to be. Life is not a platter that is served according to our needs. Its a buffet full of choices we have to make our own choice that what do we want to eat :P (foodiee fooodie thought :P) 

And the worst thing that I do in such times is that I think. But then that's how it is..!! 

drops of the rain

Like any other day today also, i left home complaining to mom how hot it is outside. Slammed the door of my lift went down started my activa and i was driving to my destination . And suddenly in the middle of everything the random thoughts the traffic that i hated the heat i felt something on my face. Drops of water had just kissed my cheeks and i tell you the feeling was awesome ..:D

As the first drops touched me there was chill that went through my veins, it was a different feeling altogether.For a second my eye lids fell down my eyes closed and i wanted time to stop and then one after d other drops started falling and yes finally it rained.

I wished that very moment that i would get down from my vehicle search for a piece of paper and make paper boats and then sit at one corner of the road and let the boats flow. I wanted to go jump in that puddle of water , rather dirty water which was taking birth on both the sides of the road. I did not care about how messy my hair would look , or how bad would i look with clothes drenched in water.I wanted to call all the friends and dance in the rains.

Just a few drops lead to a traffic jam of a what to do thoughts in mind but then yes finally i continued to drive to my destination getting wet in d rains singing songs for myself. But i m glad finally it rained :) 

WELCOME RAINS ...i love u