I don't know what it exactly was , I don't know what the feeling was like , all I know is yes I am scared , yes I was low and for reasons that even I did not know. When I washed face and looked up in the mirror yes I saw a tear my eyes were red and I saw no hopes only despair. Actually nothing happened but yet i felt your void. For the first time ever I got a thought that today if I had my someone, my special someone, that special one how would things be like. When the world would b asleep he will have all the time on this earth to talk to me, make me feel better, rather help me be myself. Help me pick up all the broken pieces and bring them back to shape. How he would know I am not okay even when i said was fine. Strange I am expecting so much from someone whom I dont even know.
From outside i may apper to be happy go lucky and a fun loving girl but ,Don't know there are times when I am broken ,I am weak from d soul though i never let anyone know. Sometimes i feel my thoughts are not worth the drama it takes in dealing with them , sometimes i wonder what differnce will my thoughts make to them as they might b busy, they all have problems of their own.
And sometimes I feel I am a fool, because i fool myself make my poor brain believe what my heart screams but then that's okay..!! That's how its supposed to be. Life is not a platter that is served according to our needs. Its a buffet full of choices we have to make our own choice that what do we want to eat :P (foodiee fooodie thought :P)
And the worst thing that I do in such times is that I think. But then that's how it is..!!
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