that someone ..!!

When we come to this world we are all alone and when we will leave this world again we will be all alone, but in this journey LIFE that's the time between birth to death we are surrounded by people ,different people at different times, each one is send to us with a purpose . All of them don't treat us in the same way but each one has a well defined part to play. Some people come to us with a bang , some silently play their part, some want us, we want some , some come in slow, some very fast,some come with a lesson,some give us memories, some try to do things to keep us , we try our best to keep some. But in the end we all have to accept the fact that everything is planned by the director of the movie of our life GOD.

So far in the journey of life I have meet many people. I always kept my options open, because we never know someday we might end up with a perfect choice. I have been lucky in life as far is people are concerned a bunch of mad friends and super cool family is all that made life better to live. But this age in life is really crazy being a 22 yr single independent girl I was happy about how things were but yes there was something missing. Even with so many people around me I felt a void, there were times I felt weak , but somewhere down the line I got used to that feeling too . I had my own ways of entertaining my self , holding myself, wiping my tears , overcoming my fears, of cheating my soul , of convincing my mind ,confusing my thoughts. I was scared to be dependent completely on someone as in different phases of life people came I always tried living upto every bodies expectation and I loved doing that only for that smile they had but sometimes when it came to me I felt it dint matter. It was my mistake because at times even I forgot about what I wanted.

And one fine day after a long chat with my friends I was laying on bed and wondering okay lets me think what do I want of my man ..my someone...nd I ended up writing this that night as a note in my cellphone.

(p.s. This is a super filmy description)

I wish there was that one person who existed only for me,
To hold me when i wanted to run away,
To tell me I was doing good ,
To see those tears that never came out,
To hold me when I am shaken,
To stand by me even when there is no one else,
To give me a tight hug and tell me that he's there,
To predict the unsent messages,
To care about my presence,
To listen to all d crap I have to say,
To scold me when I am wrong,
To love me even when I hate myself,
To look at me even in a room full of people,
To walk beside me, not ahead or behind me,
To make me feel so secure that all my insecurities kill themselves,
That one guy in whose arms my world would end.

I don't know if any of these will be fulfilled because its all fiction a play of words and I dont have so many demands for real ..

But all I actually want is a lap to sleep and a hand to hold ..